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half-dead.

2011-03-06T11:30:00.001+08:00

Im really really tired. Two more weeks of sufferings as a full-timer. The mgt only let me convert to part-time in early april. Oh my. Seriously, I got no life. Many are quitting soon since they are having mass recruitment. Im not surprise if one day I die due to over-work.

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holiday for me please!

2011-02-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

Im so gonna take a break just before poly starts. Hopefully the plan to go batam with sister and cousins wont fail. Arghhhh! There goes my pay. :( and in june, aunts and uncles plan to go Thailand for a week. Told them that I wanna follow. But I think the date is like just bfore my school holiday, I guess. And one more thing, like that I need to save up by spending wisely. Ok, thats a lil impossible lah! And somemore lesser pay in future since im converting to part-time soon. Sad or whaaaat?! Arghhhh! Stress. Dont want to go school can? :( seriously, not looking forward for it. Really.

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granny, I love you.

2011-02-25T21:25:00.001+08:00

Get well soon okay granny?

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fear of the future

2011-02-21T22:04:00.005+08:00

when i think about my future, im just so scared that it wont turn out how i expect it to be. but whatever it is, I believe that His plans are the best for me.

anw, poly gonna start quite soon. im seriously not looking forward for poly. its not due to any personal reasons or what, but really, i feel like sitting at home. maybe its because ive not been schooling for the last few months, thats why i got no more interest in studying. well, i just hope this mindset of mine will change. im so gonna take a long break before poly start to prepare myself for everything. gonna try part-time for a month when school starts. hopefully, im able to cope with it. if not, i shall say goodbye to uniqlo then.

and adult fare, you're such a killer.

because - jessica mauboy

2011-01-29T19:08:00.003+08:00

It's all because,

I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one,

I gave you my heart, right from the very start so,

Every time you lied, I knew inside,

Get another chance, I was hurting, I was broken

I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,

It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you,

You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger,

(Because) I'm better, (because) without you, you'd thought I'd be in pieces,

Because (you thought I'd be in pieces), because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya

You gave me, just one thing, but taking from the beginning

You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take,

With every alibi, that made me cry, I'd still give you more,

I should've given up, when I had had enough,

But I stayed too long, that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,

I made a mistake of giving me to you,

I made a mistake of loving you

my world is spinning too fast.

2011-01-26T13:30:00.003+08:00

o level results and posting of school, all over already. glad that i make my parents, aunties, uncles, granny, cousins and friends happy with my results. whether i deserve the results that i get or not, i should be grateful. its already fated to be that way. and so up next, a new life in the polytechnic. yes, i will be meeting new friends there. but no, im not gonna forget my secondary school friends. they are the ones who have lighten up my life for the past five years. even though we're not posted to the same school, we will still meet okay sunshines? im so looking forward to meet you guys in future at the new causeway point. i truly know that each and everyone of us will be busy with our own tight schedule by then. but i also believe that we can always find time. if theres a will, theres a way.

dearest sunshines and moonlights, next, USS okay?

(: alright, till then.

hello future, goodbye past

2011-01-03T02:33:00.005+08:00

may 2011 will be a better year than 2010. dear 2011, please be good to me alright? 2010 has been hard on me. but thanks to the sweet memories that makes 2010 a lil bit good. whats to come, i seriously got no idea. as usual, im gonna pray for the best and be prepared for the worse. afterall, everything happens for a reason.

have a good year ahead everyone :)

elliot yamin - you say

2011-01-03T02:17:00.003+08:00

Maybe it was wrong to say

Nothing as you walked away

Baby I know you´ve been confused

Telling me that it´s too late

I thought you say goodbye for good

But you´re still here with me

How we get so miss understood

Cause you say (you say)

You ain´t got time for me

Actions speak loud of your words ??

You try to say you´ve rather be

All by yourself

Oohh but I can see the way

The way you look at me

And baby I don´t believe (believe what you say)

You say oohhh

You know that it´s cool to look

Look the way you do tonight

Girl you know I´m on to you ??

Cause something just don´t add of right (no)

I thought you said you felt unsure ??

Oohh but hearts don´t lie

Cause now you´re back at my front door

Oohhhh

Cause you say (you say)

You ain´t got time for me

Actions speak loud of your words

You try to say you´ve rather be

All by yourself

Oohh but I can see the way

The way you look at me

And baby I don´t believe believe what you say

You say oohhh

You thought I didn´t care

I thought you wouldn´t stay

I hope we can go furth from on this day ??

Let start over again we don´t have to pretend

That it´s over it´s over

Cause you say (you say)

You ain´t got time for me

Actions speak loud of your words

You try to say you´ve rather be

All by yourself

Oohh but I can see the way

The way you look at me

And baby I don´t believe believe what you say

You say oohhh

Maybe I was wrong to say

Nothing as you walked away...

she's back. hohoho!

2010-12-27T02:17:00.005+08:00

sending her off, and then went to work straight away. oh my, sweet or what your little sister?! (of course :D). well, its already fated that i send her off and fetch her. God really wants me to do that. really. i was in the afternn shift on the day she's departing, and its my off day when she arrived singapore, on the eve of christmas.

"Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Lebih Mengetahui."

it seems like she really enjoyed herself there. free from stress. well, seriously, jealous. thats the word. 'cos everyone has gone for some holiday trip and im the only one has got no life, working almost everyday, full shift, as if im a workaholic. :( insyaAllah, next year i will go. anyone wanna join?

oh hey guys! look at this! the orang utans playing the drum and the guitar. this is cute! like seriously.

pay day, pay day. come here fast. i really need you.

i feel like quitting. but no, im strong to face all this.

2010-12-24T16:50:00.003+08:00

ahhhhhhhh! yesterday i was called to be in the managers' office. and from there i know theres something not right. im in great trouble. well, its about my uniform. i did not wear the shop's bottom. oh great. this was the third time i was caught by the same manager. the first time was beacause of not wearing long sleeve during the winter line. second was not wearing the shop's top. and third was ystd. oh no more please. dont piss me off again. lucky me, theres two more staff with me. after i stepped out of the managers' office, im really in no mood to work. extending? fat hope! almost everyone is resigning. one by one collecting the resignation form from the office. shall i be one of them? its not that i wanna join them, but seriously, i dont like the management. the staff there are indeed awesome. i dont know. please let me survive there. shall see how.

its already too late

2010-12-22T02:09:00.003+08:00

westlife - before its too late

All things come to those who wait

Sometimes they just come too late
And if we never speak again
I don't wanna make that mistake
We never seem to find
The place or time
To say what's on our minds so

Tell me everything now
Don't leave anything out
I'll tell you all my fears
My mistakes
Before it's too late

I don't wanna wake up one day
Wondering if I shied away
From something that once seemed so hard
One thing that's so simple to say
Why do you always hide
Your tears when you cry?
Isn't it time you try to

Tell me everything now
Don't leave anything out
I'll tell you all my fears
My mistakes
Before it's too late

make me happy please

2010-12-20T23:14:00.003+08:00

dear results, please be good to me. i've done my best. please prove to me that this pessimistic thought i have is totally wrong. theres still hope for science. and dearest english, i know all that lessons i took it for granted. i sleep most of the time during eng period and everytime when theres eng hmwk, i did not do. but i really need at least a pass for eng. i want a full certificate. please. please. please. ive got no n level you know. thinking of results really scares me. but theres nothing more that i can do except praying hard that i will get good grades.

2 days of work and five days off for me can?

2010-12-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

look how stupid we can look like.

those senior retards.

the innocent.

the nonsense.

that girl in yellow, im gonna miss her for a few days. and so she'll be flying to thailand and have fun there with her friend, while im here stuck with work. envy much? nevermind lah, as long as she's happy, then im happy for her. her past holiday wasnt spent well and all thanks to that Mr A. hopefully, this time round she can really enjoy her hols. but i dont like one part, the wardrobe in the room gonna be empty lah. shes bringing most of the nice nice clothes there. almost i guess. thanks eh sis. why not you bring the whole wardrobe and kitchen too. lol. her luggage, full of junk food. as if she's going for a jungle trip. -.- hahahaha! no hard feelings alright sis? im just joking here. insyaAllah, i will send and fetch you if it doesnt clash with my working time alright? but you ah, dont ever ever forget my souvenir.

memories

2010-12-20T00:47:00.004+08:00

today is 20th December 2010. memory of this date, one year ago. its left with memories. whether good or bad, all i know is that they are still memories, and some of it really taught me something useful. i have to move on and stop telling myself to forget everything. telling myself that is the same thing as telling myself to remember the past. one day, i believe, everything will fade away just like that, "POOF!", without me knowing it. when will that be, i dont know. but i believe that it will happen. its just a matter of time. and theres no need for me to wait.

his part in my story has ended.

and guess what,

the date i first met him last year is exactly the same date i last met him this year.

21st nov 09, 21st nov 10.

after the mia, 10th sept was his first text and 10th dec was his last.

thankyou for all the fixed date.

one book completed.

i shall not read this book for the third time.

i swear, im tired. sunshines, i miss them.

2010-12-15T03:13:00.005+08:00

you are my sunshines, my only sunshines.

these days, im feeling so weak. i just didnt have enough sleep after working for long hours. sometimes i just feel like collapsing you know. one off day is seriously not enough after 3 working days. should have appreciated the weekends during school time. fever wanted to visit me, but when i visit the doctor, it went away just like that. playing tricks me on me, i guess. and so, work was alright but im stressed up when it comes to handling super fussy customers and doing closing. and i swear, i spend a lot. ON FOOD. i've been eating nasi lemak since last week, almost everyday. that is so fattening. plus all those unhealthy snacks and carbonated drinks. damn! what a very unhealthy diet! and my pay, i guess it would be early early of next year. if thats gonna be the case, then, sunshines, im sorry but you guys have to wait for 2011 for your marble slab. be patient. :)

thankyou bestfriend

2010-12-15T02:41:00.002+08:00

Thankyou bestfriend

Thankyou for hurting me this bad

Theres nothing better I can get

Cos it’s the best heartbreak I have ever had

How I wish you know how I really felt

These feelings are so great

And I swear, I will never forget

i get weak

2010-12-15T02:27:00.006+08:00

Westlife- I Get Weak Lyrics

My love, my heart

Oh bruised and broken, all alone when we’re apart

I die inside,

Oh this room is like a battlefield of love tonight

I know I should be stronger but I lose all control

Fighting with myself tryna hide what you don’t know

But I get weak

I’m giving it all away

I know it’s not wise to leave myself so opened but

All the rules get broken in your eyes

I give it all up to you

And everything that’s been keeping me together

Brings me to my knees

I get weak

One look, one touch

Oh I’m helplessly pretending you don’t mean that much

It gets so hard

The waiting here forever with this shattered heart

Lying to myself tryna act like I don’t care, no

The way it’s killing me every time that you’re not there

Cause I get weak

I’m giving it all away

I know it’s not wise to leave myself so opened but

All the rules get broken in your eyes

I give it all up to you

And everything that’s been keeping me together

Brings me to my knees

I get weak

And all the walls I’ve been building up

Just crack and then break when you’re around

I get weak

And nothing I do to fight it matters now

I get weak

I’m giving it all away

I know it’s not wise to leave myself so opened but

All the rules get broken in your eyes

I give it all up to you

And everything that’s been keeping me together

Brings me to my knees

im sorry for not telling the truth.

2010-12-10T19:11:00.003+08:00

dearest bestfriend, im sorry to have send you that poem and my long summary to you at the very wrong time. im sorry. im so sorry. yeah, its too late already for everything. i know im the one that is at fault but i make it look like as if you're the one at the big fault. im sorry again.

this is it.

2010-12-09T01:13:00.000+08:00

its her birthday.

2010-12-09T00:33:00.006+08:00

happy belated birthday to me! happy belated birthday to me! happy belated birthday to me-ee! happy belated birthday to me! thankyouu for all the wishes everyone! special thanks to sunshines. :) yeah, the surprise got backfired awhile but you guys still manage to make me breakdown into tears, tears of joy. thankyouuu thankyouuu thankyouu very very much. i swear the cake was delicious. you guys really make my day. i thought its gonna be a bad day for me when i gt scolded by one of the acting manager, i guess. but what im confident with is that she's not the manager. *phew* and its just because of not answering the phone call correctly. i know im wrong but that small scolding i got turn my smile into a frown. but everything change when one of the real manager came to me and give me a thank you card stating his good comments abt my work. i was so shock. but really, that change my pessimistic thought of that day. and when sunshines gave me that little surprise, it totally brighten up my day. :) and so, had a great time decorating the beach balls at esplanade and walking along the river. bestfriend, shouting your name again wasnt my choice. but since its only fair for each and everyone of us to shout, i shouted yours. sorry for using your name. yeah, you not wishing me makes me sad. i cant deny. and your promise that you've made before this too. but ive got no rights to be mad at you for not doing so, dearest bestfriend. its your choice. i cant force you either. fortunately, im all prepared already. all thanks to the past for allowing me to know your m.i.a trend. i hold no grudges on you. may you always lead a happy life :)

lets not meet again even in my dream

2010-12-07T01:56:00.003+08:00

im working 8 to 8 later and im still awake. gaaaaaaahhhh! cant seem to sleep but im gonna force myself. i need enough rest. dear me, please wake up early later. or else you are in big big trouble. alright. im done here. happy tuesday people!

believe that everything happens for a reason.

2010-12-07T00:05:00.005+08:00

In the end, everything's always worth it, and if for some reason you think it isn't, some stupid thing like love will get in the way and change your mind.

thank you for that treat dearest syafiqh. eventhough its not mcspicy, the chicken chop meal makes me happy. soo big. i like. alright, i swear, meeting them and having a great chat with them even for awhile can make my day. just like that. :) how i wish i can meet all the five of them together-gather soon. i promise you guys, when i get my pay, i will treat you ppl marble slab. im gonna make sure i treat each and every one of you. :)

dear conflict, lets stop here and be our history. no more please.

the fatigue

2010-12-02T20:51:00.002+08:00

watched Easy A with sis at orchard on Tuesday, my off day. her treat :) but later when i got my pay, i need to treat her. -.- im okay with it actually. and Alhamdulillah, i got bursary again this year. glad that lil brother got it too. :)

i swear im tired. its not that i dont like working at there. everything is okay as long as you follow the instructions given. but one thing i dont like is doing the closing. i swear, its damn tiring. today is my last off day for the week. friday, saturday and sunday im working. and one more thing, i really spent a lot since i started working there. all my money gone just like that . 100% of it i spent them on food. how bad can that be? i wanna bring food from home but mommy dont cook that early especially when im working morning shift. im still thinking of whether to bring food from home tmr. like that i need to wake up extra early. aiyaaaahh. but im happy that work ends at 1830 tmr. :)

say hello to sunshines. say goodbye to bestfriend.

2010-11-28T04:02:00.004+08:00

lately, i was too busy with work. work! work! work! full-time mah. thats why. thats why. i swear, i miss hanging out with my sunshines like we used to, eating at McD after school, sitting at the library doing nothing and sit somewhere and chit chat and cam-whore. ahhhhhh.. memories. but hey! we can still create a new one right? yes yes we can! lets find a day whereby all the six of us is free okay? i know its pretty hard to find that very suitable day. but we can still make an effort and try planning correct?

oh anw, i've not been contacting bestfriend for the past four days. whatever thats gonna happen, im just gonna let it be. im prepared for anything. the past has taught me a lot. but this time round, i dont blame you. at all. seriously. if i were to blame you and get mad at you, its the same thing as blaming myself. then, i shouldnt have let you officially come back in my life for the second time right? but im the one who was hoping and praying very hard that you would come back. see, im to blame. i know that all this gonna happen again and its just a matter of time. and the time has come. tadaaaa! actually its no surprise to me 'cos i already know bestfriend's trend. whatever it is, i hope you're doing fine. one thing from me, do not hurt people's feelings esp girls. dont let bad karma bite you.

happy working everyone!

all alone tonight

2010-11-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

yes, working at there was fun. i dont lie. you dont really feel tired. the best part is that the clock is ticking very fast every time. & the friendly environment there really makes me feel comfortable. but theres one thing i hate. and that is, having lunch and dinner alone. ended up eating at KFC all alone. that is super boring. theres no one to share classic tart with. everything also alone. and so, i ate maggi cup at the pantry. luckily theres some of them entertaining me. tmr is my morning shift. dear self, please wake up early. DONT be late for work!

i remember every single thing without you knowing it

2010-11-23T02:01:00.003+08:00

monday, 22nd nov.

and so today was my first day at work and i came late. yeah. im forever late. but im not gonna let myself be late for work at all in future. i dont want to receive any warning letter. it is so hard for me to get that job and im not gonna let any of my stupidity ruins everything just like that. all i can say is that, i just love the friendly environment. luckily, its air-conditioned. i dont mind staying there for hours but i need a jacket laa. it is far far far more better than standing under the hot sun working right? i lost count on how many times i greeted the customer. heh. and for the first time in my life i attended to a very very fussy customer yet friendly and patient. but this is just the beginning. whats gonna happen in future, i seriously got no idea. no matter what, im gonna be optimistic and tell myself that i can handle the situation. :)

sunday, 21st nov.

21st nov. exactly one year ago, i met bestfriend. still fresh in my mind. he was the very first person i saw. and i still remember the part when i dropped the rice cover when i saw him. all thanks to my gabrah-ness. ahh.. memories. when i was on the phone with him, i told him about it. then he started to bring up the past. the first date at vivo. then go tamp. and blah blah blah. the past only left me with memories. good or bad, it is still memories.

and so after work, met syafiqah and hadzira at illuma. marble slab -.- (i owe them one each).

after that boarded the train with bestfriend. i wasnt hoping much before that. i just dont wanna set my hopes high on anything. neutral. :) yes i miss my bestfriend. i cant deny. chat with him throughout the journey to pasir ris. i like the fact that i can be myself not like the first time i went out with him. lol. and i bet, he also. whatever it is, im grateful to have met him today even though for awhile. on the other hand, i wanna say sorry to my sunshines.

anw, shahir was really funny and cute when he said he lost his way. he ended up taking cab to the chalet from downtown east. thanks to the bus driver for telling me the way and from there i explain to shahir how to get there. luckily, he did not get lost for the second time. he's just damn funny. partner partner.. and the most funniest part was at the bustop when he asked us "korang baru sampai?". isnt it funny when someone asked you that when you're the one who reach there first and when we should be the one who asked the question? LOL!

and for the first time, mommy was really mad at me for coming home very late without no valid reason. but i've told her earlier that im going to a friend's party after work. and when i got home, i got myself a long lecture and scoldings from dad. all i can say, dearest mommy & daddy, i dont lie to you. i always tell you the truth. yes yes, you always remind me that theres two angels on my shoulder taking down every single thing i do. believe me mom and dad, behind your back, im the same 'atikah you know at home. thank you for your care and concern.

saturday, 20th nov.

accompanied mommy to sentosa. sorry sunshines that im not able to join. bro thoha wanted to check-in in one of the hotels at sentosa and mommy need to signed something. and so, mommy asked any of us to follow so that she got a friend back home. initially no one responded. since sister insulted me, i've made up my mind to follow mommy. but it turned out that lil bro also follow. everything was last minute. but whatever it is, its never a regret following her. :)

festive hotel. i swear the hotel is super nice.

brother is only holiday-ing in singapore and it looks like as if he's going far. lol.

oh that us. :)

a night to remember

2010-11-19T18:39:00.006+08:00

p r o m

sunshines goes to prom! wee~ prom was hmm.. okaylah. best. some of the food was very nice but well well well, the bad service seriously spoils our mood. and teacher also delay our eating time when we are starving like hell alr. moonlight cant take it anymore till they went out and took the buffet food. well, when they left for their dont-know-what, the food was served. too bad, sunshines have it first. and the squid was taken by syafiqah. and she *faints* when eating the squid. hahaha!

me and her, we are inseparable. eventhough she got herself a prom date, she still sits with me. awwwwwhh :') we are pretty nonsense at times. actually all the time lah. we just love to talk crap and disturb each other. see that picture above? that is after she merajok with me. :D

smile :)

thats us. former fiveones and fivetwos. gonna miss all this fun. look! how fun it is to be together like this. the

res cheok's son, the minahs, the meenachis and matreps. lol. but seriously, they are fun to be with. i swear.

the chinese partners :)

presenting former fiveones form & co-form teacher. :)

this is one of the moonlight's food. sufyan! haha! he let us have the chicken but we take all of it. so bad of us.

when moonlight did not get to eat on time, they tend to be very noisy to show that they are not satisfied.

oh ya! suddenly i remembered about the dance floor. when they open up the dance floor, everyone went high. dancing like theres no tmr. omg. that was the most fun part of the prom.

remaining moonlight goes to esplanade with sunshines.

the two big-eyed sunshines.

we boarded the second last train. but it is still too late to catch the last bus. im so grateful to have such a caring and concern moonlight as friends. i swear they are really good people. outsiders may see them as a wild kind but i beg to differ. deep inside, they are really kind. when i said that theres no more bus already, they think of ways of how to send sunshines back home. everyone was brainstorming. and so, hadzira and dewi alighted at admiralty. i told mommy that i dont know how to go home. luckily she let me sleepover at syafiqah's house. walked to syafiqah's house with syafiqah and shahir. luckily theres shahir. while walking, a malaysian car pass by us and asked something. that was very scary you know.

excited!

2010-11-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

prom night! yeay yeay yeay! come on sunshines & moonlights, lets enjoy! :)

of all the dates..

2010-11-16T16:55:00.003+08:00

since uniqlo called me and say that i can go for the training another day, i've decided not to go for the job training today from another company. but i still need to go to the place and sign something. and it is on my prom day. luckily theres two time slots. one is at 11 and another is at 3. when the person said i need to come at 3, i was like "i need to get ready for my prom. can i like come earlier or what?". it would be very rushing sia like that. somemore, sunshines will be coming over to my house to dress up. and so, i will be going to the place in the morning. alone? omg. hopefully, i know the place. i cant afford to lost my way and end up late for my prom.

sunshines, i love them :)

2010-11-16T16:26:00.006+08:00

watched megamind with sunshines yesterday. i swear, that movie is very funny. its a must watch movie. but theres one spoiler - the cinema seat. i seriously dont like the seat.

the picture above, i love it. naughty dewi was jealous bcos the picture is so nice. since shes not in it, she took some only. went to laselle for 15mins interview. well, im forever nervous when it comes to interview. suddenly, i remembered abt one of the interview that i go to. great. sunshines couldnt stop laughing abt it. yes yes its funny. but at that point of time, i was really really damn nervous. and i also dont know what am i talking abt. well, thats my weakness. interview at 15mins was okay okay lah. the lady seemed so friendly and its easy for me to communicate with her since she's a malay. i did my best already. hopefully, i get that job.

after that went to simlim to sneak at bestfriend. since he's hiding, he's nowhere to be seen. my bestfriend so kental ah. hahah!

tamp. tamp. tamp.

accompany sunshines to do last minute shopping for prom. those two sunshines is already complete for prom. got their shoes and bags in one shop. yeay! we are bringing the same bag for prom! lets go! since theres coffee bean at tamp, we ate the classic tart. niceeee~ shared it with my eating partner. see those two retards above? they are inseparable. :)

a picture of sunshines complete the day.

boredom strikes 24/7 when Os left

2010-11-14T21:18:00.002+08:00

im still waiting for calls from those job interview that i go to. last friday, got a call from one of them. and of all the dates, they ask me to start work on my prom day. what a waste. isnt it obvious i wont let go of my prom just like that. its a once in a sec sch life you know. aiyaaahh. i really hope they get back to me by monday. i want that job lei. flexible working hours. good pay. what more do you want? i went for many job interview already. please do me good can? im tired of going around singapore searching for jobs. thats it. tmr im going to laselle and go for the last job interview, i guess. i feel like giving up. but if i were to give up, im gonna rot at home. no way.

sister, i love you.

2010-11-10T03:37:00.001+08:00

you. you. you

2010-11-10T03:31:00.007+08:00

Those memories, between you and me

Its hard for me to say,

It never fade away.

As the days goes by,

There’s nothing more to lie.

& no i cant deny,

You just cant get out of my mind.

I’ve tried my best,

till the very end,

but its still the same,

& i’ve got myself to blame.

I always think so hard,

& i cried all night.

I’m not hoping much,

As the days comes by.

You’re all i think of.

You’re all i dream of.

You’re all i ever wanted.

& that’s the part i hated.

I can’t go on like this,

But those short memories,

It really kills.

the name that always resound in my head

2010-11-10T02:34:00.005+08:00

Can you hear me when i shouted your name?

I hope you do.

But you don’t.

know her well through quotes

2010-11-10T02:30:00.001+08:00

sunshines

2010-11-10T00:48:00.006+08:00

"you are my sunshines, my only sunshines~"

oh hi diary! see, i've given you a fresh new look. you like it? aww.. i know. me too. :) oh my gdness diary! ystd was such a boring day. all i did was eat sleep eat sleep and only at night i decided to go to causeway pt with sister. seriously, if this is what life's gonna be after Os, then i rather die. no. wait. die due to boredom. i really wanna work. like seriously. rotting at home is not a good thing you know. so unhealthy! anw dear diary, the big Os gonna say gdbye to me soon. 2 more days and then thats it. im done with the big Os. ahhhhh.. like finally.. its gonna be officially over. OFFICIALLY over. i like. its time for me to pamper myself with whatever it is.

and so, will be going for another round of job hunting with sunshines. yeay! i like. sunshines, lets go singapore river at night and enjoy the nice landscape, the cool air and the beautiful lights alright. at the same time we share stories can? woahh! this is so fun.

wishing all the best to my sunshines sitting for o level mt later. do your very best and get an A alright?

your stories & your songs

2010-11-05T03:43:00.004+08:00

dear diary, i know you havent miss me. im here doesnt mean i miss you, you know. im just too bored right now. seriously bored. and you're the only one that is very faithful to me. im so sorry for using you. but fb and twitter is my priority. im using you. lol! im joking! i love you blogger just that i dont show it. to prove it to you, only you know the story of my life in detailed. :)

im so glad and felt so much relieved that we know the truth already. didnt know that a misunderstanding really makes a world go upside down. till now, my eyes are still swollen. crying for 2-3 hours straight listening to stories. at some parts, its so ouch. but i know im in the wrong and i have to accept and agree to what she said. dear friend, i know im not a good friend that you can rely on, but im gonna make it up to you and will always pray for your happiness. im gonna try my best to be by your side when you need me. whatever it is, its over already and i wanted to say sorry to those i've hurt with or without me knowing it. im sorry. i also wanna take this opportunity to thank her for making me realize what true friendship actually means.

and so, had a long chat with bestfriend just now. seriously, i really like it when he strum the guitar. in that few hours, i also dont know how many song he sang to himself. a burger king treat for 2 songs is quite worth it hah? lol. i must say that your voice is nice and when you sang it with your guitar.. especially the letters to you song, ahhh.. *melts*. thats what you said earlier. you dont wanna sing because later i will melt. but i said "yeah right.". one word to describe you my dear bestfriend - nonsense. :D but you never fail to make me laugh with all you craps and stupid lame jokes. hahaha! but dont forget, your promise.. dec 8th aye. promises are not meant to be broken. who ask you to promise? haha. no promise, no regrets you know. & you know what, me sing a song for you? for countdown 2011 somemore? no way. heh. i never promise you a thing you know. how reliable are you when you said that its the first time you sang for a girl apart from your mom and your sis. i think its reliable to a very small extent. :P

im waiting aye bestfriend.

but im not hoping much.

thats it.

and one last thing diary, im left with 2 more papers and im done with the big Os.

after that can paaarrrtttaaayyyeee!

a night to remember is on the way alr.

alrighties.

till then diary.

love you.

science practical do me good pls

2010-10-19T05:44:00.005+08:00

ahhhhhh! its science practical alr this coming thursday. 2 more days! and im only 75% prepared. 25% in two days? woah! impossible much? shuts shuts shuts! no no! be optimistic, girl. nothing is impossible. okay, im gonna struggle in this last lap of revision. still, im gonna study smart. during the O level week, im so not going to use the lappy. i've made a dare to myself. no fb. no twitter. no blogger. no tumblr. no weheartit. nothing. until 12 nov. oh ya! no tv as well. im gonna put my phone aside and try my best not to entertain any calls or msg-es. unless lah its from my sunshines.

im glad that most of the papers will be in the afternn except for combined humanities. need to sleep early. & wake up early. i dont like. ohh mann! its been a while since i last go to bed early you know. i dont know whether i can wake up early too. i need a wake up call. not from the teachers of course. a wake up call from teacher would only mean one thing - you're late for your exam. hopefully, on the day i need to sit for combined humanities paper, sis is on morning shift so she can be my alarm clock. ;)

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini. Permudahkanlah segala urusanku, Ya Allah. Amin.

Gdluck friends for your papers! lets do our best and get good grades aye?

bye bye blogger. i let you stop listening to my stories okay. you need a rest too.

i'll be back after 12th nov.

dont be naughty okay?

i love you.

bye.

happy birthday Libra sunshines!

2010-10-17T02:48:00.005+08:00

happy belated birthday to dearest Syafiqah & Hadzira!

fifteenth&sixteenth

happy advance birthday to dearest Soleha!

twentieths

happy birthday sunshines!

may Allah bless you always.

may all your wishes will come true. :)

a surprised mini party for birthday girl, hadzira ystd. well, we like it very much. everything goes well as planned. hadzira and her sad sad tweets. HAHAHA! you funny girl. she was quite optimistic to think that we all were still sleeping even when its already afternn. thanks to her mum for helping us and also that black pepper mee. nicee sia! i swear. i like it. i love it. very much.

here are some of her tweets :D

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

i think mama's cooking black pepper noodle! and just ytd @AtikahRomans was craving for it. is mama psychic or what???? :D

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

did they forget? :'(

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

i feel so sad somehow.

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

is everyone still asleep?? what time did you guys sleep?

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

did my sunshines forget tt tdy is a special day? only 1 sunshine bday texted me :'(

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

lets think positive. they're probably asleep.

after "SURPRISE!"

hadziraDH Hadzira Hamzah

MY SUNSHINES ARE THE BEST!!!!!! at my hse now :DDD

and so, thats how the story goes. after that, went to woodlands waterfront. we were having lots of fun as if O level is over alr. but reality states NO!

aaaaahhhhh! dearest time, please please fly fast can?

2010-10-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

Some people are like seasons

They come and go and never stay around for too long

They bring lots of storms, rain, and natural disasters && they tend to change every couple of months

Some are like days..

unique, but short lasted. they dont stay long && they dont ever come back once they have left

But some are like stars.

They are always there && they dont go away

Weather you see them or not.

♥

we graduate. but we wont forget.

2010-10-01T08:08:00.004+08:00

the cute cupcakes from dearest teachers.

the minahs, the mats, the ahbengs, the amoi.

im so gonna miss this class

when the 3 races met the teacher

2010 graduating students of Riverside

yesterday was graduation day. omgdness! i swear i had loads of fun taking pictures with graduating mates, running around the school like mad ppl with neighbours, waving gdbye to teachers and juniors of almost every class. damn fun sia! im so gonna miss all this. well, we're not really officially graduated. theres still extra class need to be attended. ahhh! now, counting the days to O level science practical on 21st oct. Fuhh! not much time left!

and so, watched Devil with sunshines and the moonlight. and last minute, shahir did not join. oh my.. he wasted 6bucks. apelah.. Devil wasnt that scary. only the sound effects and the last few parts of the movie was quite scary when the granny suddenly appear from behind, with that big eyes of hers. frankly speaking, haunted changi was more scary.

and so, will be meeting him today. i seriously dont know what to buy for him for his belated birthday gift and so, decided to ask help from syafiqah. thank you aye my dear makan partner. :)

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, permudahkanlah segala urusanku. Amin.

:(

2010-09-28T20:59:00.005+08:00

tomorrow is the last day of school. graduation day on thursday! oh my.. im gonna miss my crazy classmates who always brighten up my day with their lame, funny and stupid jokes. really. i will miss all the fun we had in class, hiding others' stuffs, playing with the visualizer, playing games during lesson (fnake and ladder) and loads more. im gonna miss sleeping during lessons, late for school, detention and scoldings from those funny teachers. ahhhhh.. memories..

after this, we're on our own struggling for the final lap - the Os. in less than a month, will be sitting for it. studied for few years for that 10 dreadful exam days. well, frankly speaking im not prepared. 20% prepared. only. thats pretty bad hah? i know. im gonna make full use of this intensive revision tingy. just wanna do my very best and get it over and done with. :)

and so, he lost his phone. therefore not able to text him. as the world also knows, guys dont remember ppl's number. well, thanks to fb for saving me. at least, im able to contact him through fb. hopefully, he will get back his simcard tmr. amin. :)

im done here.

till then aye.

smile always everyone. :D

2010-09-24T18:10:00.002+08:00

you were there to light my day

you were there to guide me through

from my days down and on

i'll never stop thinking of you

well, everything seemed good these days but im not really hoping much for the days to come bcos im pretty scared to face the future. history, please dont repeat can?

2010-09-20T16:03:00.003+08:00

congratulations to uncle hashim. glad that everything goes well as planned back in malacca. tears of joy seen from the faces of cousins really touched my heart. now, cousin have a new mom. hopefully with the presence of a new mom in their life will benefit the whole family. :)

thank you for your every night gdnight msg even though i cant reply.

and so, i missed out this year raya with the sunshines and the moonlight. :( i believe theres wisdom why im not able to join them. but its our graduating yr. hopefully, theres next year.

8 more days to graduation.

2010-09-11T23:13:00.004+08:00

selamat hari raya!

this year hari raya, im glad that i've apologised to certain people that i really want to. even those who have hurt me has apologised to me. whether its sincere or not, only Allah knows that. but theres this one person that have admit his mistake. well, i hope i can see the sincerity in him sooner or later. but whatever it is, whats past, is past. theres no way i can turn back the time.

im left with one more day and then, back to school. great. assignments not done yet. everything is only halfway done. oh teacher, how can i finish all the hmwk given? its impossible you know. well, you may say its possible but its impossible. oh ya! chemistry mock exam on mon! gaaaaahh!! need to start revising tmr.

few more days to graduation. im looking forward for that day but i dont feel like graduating ah. i just love my classmates.

till then ya.

2010-09-04T03:54:00.003+08:00

Yes, good people get hurt all the time and that's why I've learned that putting your heart and soul into everything isn't always the best thing to do.

one more week to Hari Raya! and so, i really love this part of the month. september holiday! even though im free from all that dreadful lessons, piles of homework still awaiting. and when school reopens, there will be mock exams for some of the subjects. cant really enjoy this one week break. but its hari raya you know?! how can we not enjoy? most probably will bring some of my notes to relatives' house. my prelim marks was so not good and i got myself E8 for 2 subject - poa and humanities. poa paper was very difficult, so im not to blame. as for humanities, i cant deny. i studied at the very last minute, on the day itself. silly me. i know. will get myself fully prepared for the upcoming Os in about 60 days.

and today, will break fast with qfactor friends at sakura at far east plaza. gonna pay 20plus bucks for an ice-cream i guess. its break fast. i dont think i cant eat a lot. hmm. ohh dewi, please please please. i really hope you can make it.

and on monday, will be watching "haunted changi" with sunshines. great. i am so the "macam paham" to watch scary movie. let this be the first and the last im watching scary movie.

oh ya! talking to that two buddies on the phone was awesome. very noisy. but i like.

till then.

happy holiday everyone!

happy hari raya to all muslims!

forgive me okay?

bye.

2010-08-23T23:29:00.003+08:00

oh my. its only monday. and im so looking forward for weekend. arghhh! sometimes i feel like skipping school but nahh i cant and i shouldnt do that. school's life is getting more and more stressful. lessons ends late plus evening academy. oh girl, be optimistic. few more weeks to graduation and in two months, will be sitting for the dreadful Os. the exam that will somehow determine my future. i just wanna get it done and over with. dear time, please speed up can? the maximum speed please.

others spend their weekend studying and revising, i spent my weekend "enjoying life". after 5 days facing the books and piles of worksheets, i should get myself a rest for a day or two right? and so, last weekend, spent the day with sunshines and moonlight, break fast at arab st. and on sunday, date with sis to ikea to buy house decorations.

great. great. great. mommy nag at me. sister was not happy with me. and all because of that someone. aaaaaahhhhhh! this is very sickening. annoying. irritating. i really hate this. dear life, you are full of sadness. :(

o level eng oral tmr and i dont feel nervous at all. its not that im confident that i can speak well tmr but that feeling havent visit me. maybe tmr afternoon i guess. goodluck everyone. all the best to myself too. :)

2010-08-18T19:45:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah. i get an A1 for my o level MT. surprisingly ive got myself a distinction for oral. all thanks to Mdm Baya for giving me great advice, encouragement and sometimes sarcastic comment. seriously, if not for her, i will not do this well. i still remember the time when she tested me for oral. i cant talk well. only 1 or 2 sentence and then i stopped and start to be speechless. and i used to say that i cant do it. but she kept on telling me that theres nothing to be scared of and i can do it. she also used to tell me that theres no use of doing well in the paper if im weak in my oral. and so, here i am with my mt result - an A1. thank you teacher! i also wanna thank my mom and dad for their prayers. if not for them also, i dont think im able to get an A1. mother's prayers are very powerful. thank you friends for all the support and best wishes. to those who need to re-take, never give up alrighties? i bet theres wisdom. only Allah knows whats best for you. and if you already pray very hard but He did not answer your prayers, it simply means that He knows that you are strong to face it. and now, lets study smart for o levels. lets aim the star okay?

and oh no, very sad. few more weeks to graduation. this is very very sad :'(

2010-08-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

and so, just came back from evening academy. to be exact, from mcD. had frappe. shared with my INSEPARABLE partner. evening academy was quite fun. well, learnt something. get to break fast with my E.A girls. (evening academy). sadly, soleha wasnt with us just now. if not, it would be merrier right? :(

and hey! i failed my POA prelim. and seriously, i thought that i got a single digit for that ugly paper. but it turned out to be a double digit. that 1% luck helped me a lot though i still fail. great, only two passes in the class and the highest marks was 58. and i got 43. okaylah. but seriously, that paper really kills most of us. even the sec 4 express classes didnt do well. almost 70% of the total sec 4s and 5s failed that paper and teacher still can blame the students for that ugly marks they got. great eh. isnt it obvious that the paper was such a killer to all of us? that is so not o level standard. gaaaaaaaaahhhhh!

no more tears in the eyes.

no more being nice to enemies.

the girl who used to be calm in every situation has extinct.

never trust guys bcause guys are just dumba** right?

how i wish i know silat and able to apply it on those who deserve it.

i know i've changed.

i myself realised it.

but i still know how to control myself.

can i just stop here and dont go any further?

hopefully.

i just want to be myself.

one thing to note : never hurt those who dont deserve it.

im still a human and im never perfect. not even close to being perfect. :)

2010-08-12T15:15:00.003+08:00

God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them

tmr is friday! back to school tmr! great. prelim and mt o level results tmr. very scary. very very. even though its only prelim.. as for mt o level, i cant say much. i bet mdm baya saw the results already. after this, no more enjoying life until after o level. evening academy will start soon also. be prepared for more stress. :(

and so, ystd went to geylang with sister. waited for her for almost 1.5 hours. and there she came with amadil. -.-

phewww.. hes with us for awhile only. extra only. its my date with sister only okay? and throughout, i was quite sarcastic to him. oopsie. im just being myself. i dont give a damn!

as usual, theres lots of stuffs you can get at geylang. esp food. oh my.. seriously, the food sold there seems so delicious. the drinks.. ahhh.. just cant explain. sedaapnye. and finally, when its time to break fast, ate chicken chop. nikmat!

after that, head to causeway. sis wanted to order a customized mug for amadil. didnt know that she will be that mad at me when i did not save the picture that she wants in the microSD. oh my.. its not my fault mann. of course i felt a little gulity but i just cant accept that he is more important to her than me. and when i told her that, she kept quiet. this is very sad. :(ahhh.. nvmind lah. whatever it is, i still love her.

blah blah blah blah

im hungry.

about 4 more hours to go.

anw, all the best everyone for tmr's results! ;)

2010-08-08T07:57:00.002+08:00

if you were the one, you wouldn't hurt me so bad.

tired. sleepy. but i need to get ready to work in few minutes' time. yesterday's qfactor movie day was awesome. enjoyed it. as usual, most of them are the kecoh type. and so, watch the last airbender 3D. the show was okay, not bad. but i prefer SALT. after the movie, went to one of the crews birthday party at downtown east. great. on the way there saw fik. yes. him. im not hallucinating right amalina? its him! seriously him. i was walking past macdonald and then saw him came out from there. told amalina about it. thought its over like that. then qfactor friends made a turn and head off to burger king, next to macdonald. and here comes the climax. he was there too with his friends. 2 tables away. luckily it was at night and in addition to it, he was facing the other side. apart from that, he did not wear specs. seriously, at that time i felt scared. scared of what? i dont know. the others was like, "why why? what happened? tell me". seems like Allah has anwser my prayer. after performing my prayer in the morning, i prayed very hard that i will get to see him ystd and hopefully that will be the last time. whatever it is, i will try my best.

2010-08-05T18:18:00.002+08:00

had a long nap ystd. i slept after maghrib ystd and woke up only at 9am today. 13 hours of sleeping. seriously, the headache ystd very very very pain. it feels like being poke on the head with needles. and so, i did not fast today. :(

went shopping with mommy just now. bought two shoes. one for tmr's work and another pair for hari raya. the shoes for hari raya i use my own money. mommy dont want to pay for me. she said that if i want it, use my own money. and so, bought it at charles & keith bcos theres a sale. got it at 25bucks. 40% off. great buy right? the other shoe i pester mommy to buy for me. at first she said use my own money. but then john little having a sale also. the price is 2 for 33bucks. and so i told mommy to get one for herself. and like finally, i manage to pester her. now, im aiming for that charles & keith bag. nice la sey!

boss just send a msg saying that he booked the movie tickets already. yeay! i cant wait for qfactor movie day! so kind of boss to pay 60% of the ticket price. :D

national day celebration in sch tmr! what to wear?! my red and white tshirt went missing. great eh. they went missing when i need them so badly. i still dont know what to wear tmr. somebody, help me please. :'(

2010-08-04T17:17:00.003+08:00

"Just because she comes off strong,
doesn’t mean she didn’t go to sleep crying.
And even though she acts like nothing’s wrong,
maybe she’s just really good at lying."

oh yeah! oh yeah! its over! prelim is over. lalalalalalalalalala~ i like. yess yess yess! no need to go to sch tmr and i have a pretty long holiday. long? not really. exaggerating much? 1 week holiday. something like that lah.

yeay! gonna get school allowance from mommy tmr. i need to put aside 15 bucks to pay my debt. borrowed sister money to buy carrot pants. heheh. oh ya! thanks sis for yesterday's treat. accessories, lunch and shoes. thank you ya! and so, will be working on friday at wellington pri sch. more income for me. heavy pocket by end of this week. :) btw, is qfactor movie day still on?

oh no! its getting nearer. mt o level result after national day. oh my. scary scary scary. oh distinction distinction, can i have you? i needed you so bad my dear a1 a2. :{ plaese. ohh great, most probably need to come back to sch even though its prelim marking day. :(

thought of going out with sunshines since theres no sch tmr. but i want to fast. how? tell me how? that shouldnt be an excuse correct? hmm..

2010-07-21T21:02:00.004+08:00

thanks nirmala for the punjabi outfit. :) and so, celebrated racial harmony day in school just now. overall, okaylah. only love the cam-whoring part. :D will miss all this when we graduate. awwww.. :'(

mt o level is already over. now, just waiting for the results. i know that i've done my very best. whether im fated to get a distinction, pass or fail, i will accept. but hopefully, a distinction. 3 more weeks and the result will be out. this is scary.

tmr is prelim's practical. great. i dont like. obviously, sauna in the lab. plus plus plus, the door will be close and the curtains will be drawn. oh my.. roasted by the end of the practical.

seems like i will be very busy for the next two weeks. will be back after prelims.

all the best riversidians for prelims.

toodles~

2010-07-18T02:01:00.005+08:00

I thought I was strong, but I know I was wrong since you're gone.

ystd's study date plus fireworks was great. enjoyed it. that 3 guys arre seriously jokers. they will always make you burst into laughter even with their lame jokes. seriously. thank you syafiqah for that chewy junior treat. appreciate it loads. thank you thank you thank you! love it! yum yum!

well, had a long chat with sis just now. we shared stories and i told her that guys are just dumbass that cannot be trusted. and she told me not to let myself think bad about all guys just because im hurt by one. nahh! dont want. i dont care. theres loads of stories of big fat liars shared by my friends. and that really make me think that all guys are the same. airplanes are unnecessary. oh ya! to all dumbass guys, thank you for making ladies stronger than ever. :) *evil smile*

alrighties, im tired. great, need to work later. damn damn damn. hopefully, its not that caterer okay. i dont want that one. please please please. pasir ris is too dangerous for me. oh me oh my, somebody, help me fight this stupid feelings.

berserah.

2010-07-16T17:34:00.002+08:00

LADIES! You dont need a man to make you happy! You need yourself and your loved ones closest to you dearly!

o level is not over. it has not even started yet but we are busy discussing about prom night. even prelim is in one weeks' time. great. im seriously not prepared yet for prelim.. and so, going for a study date with amalina and some hillgrove friends. hopefully, theres fireworks tmr. wanna watch it after studying. :D

oh ya, happy one month sister! hopefully, you are blessed always. last long!

okay. im done here. byes. toodles~

2010-07-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

finally, end of first part of nightmare. im done with my o level malay oral. thank god, the topic tested just now was quite easy. whatever it is, i've tried my very best and what the outcome may be, i shall accept it. but im still aiming for a distinction. now, left with listening compre. and after that, shall wait for the results after national day. distinction can? a1 or a2 please. :{

ohh great. i forget to return the class key to the office ystd. and discipline mistress told me to write a letter to principal. im so not going to hold that class key again no matter what. thanks to nirmala for helping me in the letter writing. :)

and so, im working this sunday. at pasir ris? damn it. me dont like it. but i clearly rmbr that i chose tamp for this week event. hmm.. nevermindlah. theres always a reason for everything that happen.

i cant wait for 21st July. its racial harmony day! its our last year and for sure will miss it when we graduate. gonna wear nirmala's punjabi. hopefully, she bring it today. shall i share with you that my indian friends are awesome. :D

alrighties, school starts late today. and i think im not sleeping tonight. already had enough sleep just now.

alrighties. till then~

toodles~

2010-07-11T22:16:00.006+08:00

the big eyed girl.

the small-eyed girl.

just being us.

nice one dewi. good job.

the mad twos.

i seriously seriously have wasted my weekend. silly me. lazy me. two days of not facing the books and notes, i felt somehow lost. spent my day today doing unnecessary stuffs while yesterday was spent at work and at esplanade.

speaking of yesterday, it was a totally an unplanned date with dewi fitria bte kasim to see fireworks at esplanade. me ended work at 5 while dewi, at 6. oh ya! it was damn tiring sey. for like the first time, all the crew members were malay. kecoh kecoh! they are very fun and friendly too. oh ya! thanks salleh for sending me to sengkang mrt. thank you very much. appreciate it. at least i dont need to walk that long way from that park to farmway lrt. after that wander at compass point alone. feeling feeling emo awhile while waiting for dewi to call me back. and then, esplanade! we were so fascinated by the fireworks. two crazy people laughing and shouting like nobody's business. its so hard to capture the fireworks. i was like "dewi cepat ambik! kat situh dewi! kat sane! kat blakang!" and dewi was like turning around with the camera capturing ermm.. nothing.. okay lah. not bad. theres one photo of the fireworks that is quite clear.let me give you some credits eh dewi. *clap clap*. hahahahaXD

and so, i was damn tired yesterday till i doze off without bathing. actually, i was waiting for sister to get out of the toilet, and so i lie down on that comfortable bed with towel somemore. and didnt know that i doze off and only woke up and realised it the next day.

today when i woke up, theres no one at home, excpt for bro thoha, who is still sleeping. mommy went to a wedding invitation. dad and lil bro went to the mosque. as for sister, celebrating her friend's birthday. again, im left alone. at 2 plus, sis called and asked me out for lunch. with her mr tp of course. and so, im okay go! no more thinking twice. no food at home somemore. and like finally i get to see her mr tp face to face. seriously, that guy dont look like a police to me. not at all. and when mommy said that she want to meet him, sis and him start to panick. itupun nk segan. great, mommy went there with aunties and granny. hahahaha! amek korang!

great. theres many hmwk not done yet. and here i am, still facebook-ing and tweeting. distraction! okay lah. not bad. release stress. stress with the people at home awhile. im mad at them for always making a mess. and even after i cleaned up, again, there they are enjoying messing up the house. and im here sacrificing my time doing the houshold chores. thanks eh. and just now, i get mad, and i scolded everyone. oh me oh my.. i shouldnt have done that. but im a human being. obviously i do have feelings too. my patience has its limits also. i think if one day i were to rebel, im sorry people. maybe its just because, i've been so patient all this while. but i really hope that day wont come.

and like finally, the world cup is ending soon. in few hours time. yess ah! im irritated with this world cup fever going on. and i know nothing about it. you people may say that i've got no life. im not hurt.

i just dont like fifa.

till then.

bye~

2010-07-10T00:46:00.005+08:00

its 1246hours. its normal. owls are active at night right? yes, im one of them. the silly naughty owl that lost its way home. not able to fly - too heavy. lol. kay. cut the crap. and so, am working tmr. omg! sengkang! great. im going to travel around singapore tmr by train. mrt from wdlds to bishan. transfer to circle line and then alight at serangoon. again, transfer. this time round to purple line and finally, alight at sengkang. oh no! not yet! still need to take the sengkang LRT and alight at farmway. oh me oh my, so far, so long and so complicated. am not surprise if im lost tomorrow. and great, im travelling by myself. no friend. what a bore! aiyoma.. dont like dont like. hopefully, the clock will tick very fast tmr. after 5pm, if the clock wants to tick as slow as tortoise, i care less. :D

and so ystd, i just felt so guilty about smthg. again, im sorry. i know i've been apologising since ystd. but i just cant help it. sorry my dear friend. its never our intention. seriously. and its not because you are sensitive. everyone has feelings. so, you are not at fault at all. once again, very very very sorry.

sunshines is only complete when theres six. :)

and syafiqah zehr, i cant wait for monday. chocolate ice cream treat from this girl. oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah! she lose and i won the bet! yabbadabbadoo!

okays, now im off to preparing the stuffs for tmr.

happy weekends people!

enjoy! dont forget to study alrighties?

toodles~

2010-07-08T18:28:00.003+08:00

Fact is everyone is going to hurt you , you just gotta know who is worth the pain .

school is so stressful. everyday, theres piles of hmwk given. oh me oh my.. i know i know. its for our own good. alrighties, eng lesson was as boring as usual. teacher came into the class and start nagging. that is so unnecessary.

great. ive been feeling so restless in school these days due to not enough sleep. others wake up at 2 to watch soccer while im here waking up at that hour just to watch my favourite show - bionik. its a habit already. automatically, i will wake up at 2.25am by myself. and i'll continue my sleep only at 5am. yes i know, im weird but i just cant miss it.

*sigh* theres history hmwk need to be done. structured essay plus source-based qns. luckily school ends early tmr. im going home straight to do my revision. it sounded like "macam paham" but im gonna do it bcos im spending my saturday working. and like finally, im working. yess ah! i like.

till then diary.

toodles~

2010-07-04T17:37:00.003+08:00

shades!

i love singapore!

and thats sezaire.

toilet.

i have wasted my weekends. seriously, i did not touch any of my books, hmwks and notes. spent the whole day at padang yesterday with cousins, watching ndp preview. it was unplanned. hafiz called me at noon when i was enjoying my sleep, saying that he has 2 ndp tickets. since mommy is at home, i dont need to do the household chores. :D and so meet cousins at cityhall at 4. this year the ndp's bag is quite nice. the goody bag is heavy but theres little food inside. only 2 packets of biscuits. :(

about the parade, i only love the part when theres lots of SAF military tanks and all the SCDF's vehicle. theres ambulance too! i like!

the mood for today : lazy

im feel so lost at home. dont know what to do. this cannot continue. im going to do my hmwk and settle all my school stuffs tonight, so that tmr im able to do revision.

alrighties, till then.

toodles~

2010-07-02T23:35:00.003+08:00

so ive made up my mind. and there i go - to ignite music festival.

ignite music festival @ rp was too loud for me. hehe. but i really enjoyed being there with some of my sunshines and my other classmates. most of the time - camwhore. great. shoes are dirtied. thanks to the muddy grass. sorry syafiqah for saying that you are crazy. we seriously thought that you were hallucinating. but it turned out that we were totally wrong. its at wdls, obviously theres few familiar faces. seriously, i enjoyed it. i really love the ice-cream. oh ya! the 'ghost' are so scary. when they came near me, i nearly run. the way they dressed up really really look like a real ghost. eeeeeee~ scary!

didnt know that you went there too.

2010-07-01T20:31:00.004+08:00

arggggggggggghhhhhhh! eng lesson was bored as usual. mannn! for gdness sake, i want a different teacher. but its impossible. and so, just now madam have 1hr 30 min with us for eng. in that 1hr 30min, 1hr 15min was used up for nagging us, last 15min used for going through summary. great huh? very indeed.

seriously, theres piles of homework awaiting - both maths lesson's wksht, chemistry, english, physics, principles of account and i think theres somemore. apart from that, need to practice on malay oral. also, continuous revision. stress stress stress stress stress.

so, should i go the ignite music fest at rp tmr? hmm.. let me think about it again. let me see first alrighties syafiqah.

now im off to doing my revision. till then people. toodles~

2010-06-30T20:52:00.003+08:00

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

(obviously, there are parts which are untrue.)

credits to somebody.

2010-06-30T18:58:00.003+08:00

its time for revision.

the cupcakes. wahhh.. so nice. seems so delicious.

look at the eyes. damn damn big sey. with the bangs somemore. so cute.

great. school is so stressful. exams around the corner. 16 more lessons left before prelim. the last lap before sitting for the Os. shall i share that eng oral just now was far far more better than mt oral. weird but its the fact. seriously did not prepare myself for the oral just now. but it went quite smoothly. overall, okaylah. not bad. buts its kinda not fair. you know i know.

well, there will be o level malay oral on the 14th. great eh. im forever nervous about that. im gonna practice practice and practice from tmr onwards. hopefully, on the 14th, the conversation topic tested will be the one that im familiar with. hopefully.

Ya Allah, tenangkan lah hatiku pada hari tersebut nanti. Amin.

since monday, im not able to sleep early. thanks to the holidays, im used to sleeping late. now, my eyes can only shut after 4am. insomnia insomnia insomnia. at least theres my fav tv programme at that hour - bionik which ends at 3.30. hehe. :D

and i ended up yawning countless times during lessons. i tried my best not to sleep in class but couldnt control myself from doing so. BUT i will only sleep after completing the assgmt given. im a relatively good girl. (ahakz!)

so, school starts late tmr. good. im able to extend my nap.yeay!

till then. piles of hmwk awaiting. not forgetting revisions.

no more PROCRASTINATING!

bye.

2010-06-27T03:41:00.001+08:00

2010-06-27T03:22:00.000+08:00

Westlife - Have you ever

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night?

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right?

Have you ever?

Have you ever been in love

Been in love so bad

You'd do anything

To make them understand?

Have you ever had someone

Steal your heart away?

You'd give anything

To make them feel the same?

Have you ever searched for words

To get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say

And you don't know where to start?

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all your life?

You'd do just about anything

To look into their eyes?

Have you finally found the one

You've given your heart to

Only to find that one

Won't give their heart to you?

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait

For that day when they will care?

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?

What do I gotta say to get to your heart

To make you understand

How I need you next to me?

Gotta get you in my world

'Cause, baby, I can't sleep

2010-06-27T02:36:00.003+08:00

terrible flu. bad headache. aiyayayai. great, tomorrow is the start of semester 2 and im starting to fall sick. and so, came back from sultan mosque at abt 1 plus. i kept sneezing all the way, even when im performing my prayer. the ppl there turned & looked at me and smiled. phew.. only a few gave me that one unnecessary stare. oh ya! just now during selawat, theres this guy, his voice was a total wow! seriously. felt very calm listening to his voice. thats one of the ustaz's pupil. when i looked at the screen infront, saw his face. handsome. so tenang. yes. maybe because of his amalan, i think. because mom & dad once told me if you feel calm and enjoy looking at someone's face, most probably because of their gd deeds and amalan. can see the cahaya. soleha was at sultan mosque too but did not manage to find her. im really looking forward for another of this kind of event. mst probably there is in mid july.

yeay! i manage to fast yesterday. happy! :D

so, 3 more days left to pay back.

school reopen tomorrow. am i prepared for another stress? i myself dont know.

2010-06-26T04:05:00.000+08:00

2010-06-26T03:55:00.000+08:00

2010-06-26T03:32:00.002+08:00

its 3.32 am already. im tired but eyes dont want to shut. thats the problem. i used to sleep at 6plus these days and this is so unhealthy. that really explain the outbreak of pimples. but i wonder why syafiqah's skin is so flawless. hmm.. i envy her. :D

i think its no use going to bed now since im going to fast later. and so, i shall wait lah. and somemore sis and big bro is still awake. little kitty too. im gonna clean the house at this hour, maybe at 4 plus before having my predawn meal, so that i can sleep peacefully later after subuh. furthermore, i wanna save my energy later until i break fast. :))

bored. bored. bored.

this is so not exciting.

oh ya! 1 more day to go. school reopen! i miss my sunshines. i miss my classmates. i miss all the exciting lessons - both maths class (oh great! that two teachers of mine are jokers. i like. :)). as the world also know, im not looking forward for eng. but too bad, really need to push myself to pay attention. eng is so important. fail eng and theres no full o level cert. so threatening. yet so real.

school reopen = exams = more revision = pay attention = no sleeping in class = no more internet = sleep early (before midnight)

in conclusion, today will be the last day im gonna sleep late. no more sleepless night please. insomnia insomnia go away! shoo! shoo! come back only after my o level.

ShesAtikahT

2010-06-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

ShesAtikahT

2010-06-26T01:05:00.004+08:00

ystd, the whole day did not online. except for fb. and for awhile only, using psp. shall i tell you a story dearest phone cannot be charged anymore. and i only knew it when the battery is totally flat. seriously flat. cannot be on already. when i told mommy about it and gave her pathetic look, she smiled and laughed at me and said, "i bet you can live without phone. anything you can just use my phone". -.-

actually quite true lah. because i dont really use the phone. no one to msg or call already. as for dearest sunshines, mostly i chat with them either at fb or twitter. right now, i dont care much about phone already and i think i can live without it. *optimistic*:)

alrighties, im really broke right now. its been already 3 consecutive weeks i did not work. no work = no income. cant deny that i use mommy's money a lot during the hols. sorry mommy. hehe :D

and so, spent the day yesterday with granny, aunties and cousins, celebrating cousin's birthday. and after that went shopping at causeway. and theres this one grey lace gown at metro really attracts aunts' and my attention. seriously nice. and when i looked at the price, i was so shocked. imagine, the original price was $169 and now the selling price is only $29. and that is abt 80% off the original price. great buy! and so, bought it! and that was the last grey piece. itulah yang dinamakan rezeki. seriously, its hard to find that lace gown at an affordable price. even my hari raya's dress, even though sent to tailor, amounted to about 15o bucks. i feel like buying another of that lace gown which is in maroon. nicee. gonna pester mommy. :D

sorry guys, i cant make it to Sunday's study date. i really need to prepare school related stuffs. today im kind off busy after noon. house in a mess. need to clean up. great eh, they make a mess, i be the maid. :( nvmindlah, one way of burning fats. after that, will be going to selawat at sultan mosque with family. and im so looking forward to it. di situlah aku dapat merasakan ketenangan. also, i intend to fast today. hopefully, im able to make it through.

2010-06-24T03:36:00.005+08:00

kamal adli. (mawas handsome, right soleha?)

its 3.36am and im still not in bed yet, eyes are still wide open. (nahh.. its always big) .well, used to it already. luckily theres my favourite shows at this hour. bio-nik and upik abu & laura. shall i tell you that kamal adli is hot. :D oh ya amalina, now then i know who is intan ladyana. :) oh ya! semester 2 timetable is already out. school will end at 2pm everyday except for friday (1230). happy? not really lah as theres focus study after that until late afternn. gosh! but this time round, i really love friday. im able to go home straight after that. no focus study on that day. yeay! im so loving it!

and so, countdown to school reopens - 4 more days.

2010-06-22T22:39:00.003+08:00

spent the day at jb with family and cousins. toy story 3 is superb! rating : 5 out of 5 *thumbs up* . well, its been so long since i last watched movies. i think the last time i watched movie was 6months ago. woah! so long! but i dont really feel it lah 'cos time flies so fast these days. oh ya! i only have 3 more months to prepare for my o levels. and i really hate this very one part of exam - ORAL! when semester 2 starts, there will be eng prelim and malay o lvl oral. oh my gosh! oh my gosh! this is so scary. i really hate it. whatever it is, i will try my very best to score.

and seriously, i wasted my holiday just like that. cant deny theres lots of distractions at home esp internet. thats the biggest distraction.

few more days to school reopen.

2010-06-22T01:28:00.001+08:00

what i did today?

study date with amalina at rp > waterfront > walk back home (damn tiring but i enjoy! )

2010-06-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

2010-06-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

finally, im done with my hair. hair is already neat. no need for me to straighten my hair every morning already. thanks to the barber for rebonding my hair. and so, went to the same salon as last few weeks just now and did my hair. syafiqah, sorry yaws, i did not wait for you. accept my apology please. :{

its father's day today and theres nothing special given to daddy. sorry daddy. i also didnt realise that its fatherd's day today. oopsie. uncle and aunty came for ngaji just now and i cooked for them maggi. its father's day, and so uncle helped me with the cooking. in total, we cooked 5 packets of maggi. and it is so yummy. i like. :D

yeay! meeting sunshines tmr for study date. but not all of the sunshines. :( gonna study at republic poly. oh ya! i intend to fast tmr to pay back the days. hopefully, im able to wake up early to have my predawn meal. note to myself : dont forget to wake amalina up.

2010-06-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

2010-06-18T22:56:00.004+08:00

supposingly theres study date today. but it was cancelled. once again, sorry yaws sunshines. :D

thought of spending the day revising. but it turned out to be spring cleaning. yess. me clean the house. quite tiring eh. had a great time with granny. even after telling her not to help me clean, she insisted and help me. thanks ya granny! love you! well, i threw lots of stuffs today. truck loads! me dont care who does it belong to. thats me when it comes to cleaning. dearest family, if you are not able to find your stuff, dont blame me okays? hehe. :D

when mommy came back, she was soo happy that the house was clean. and she said "thank you eka. nanti ummi kasi duit okay?" and i told her me dont want money. i just want her to sponsor me to rebond my hair. hehes. like that, i will save a lot.

at night, went to sheng shiong with granny and sister. saw this sHunshine- syafiqah! she was shocked. her reaction was already expected. as usual. haha.

and so, today, im sleeping early. meaning, before 12. im seriously seriously tired. me need enough rest. somemore dearest aunties and cousins will be coming over to visit granny. another headache? hmm.. guess so. oh ya! i need to ask aunt about the cream.

2010-06-17T14:13:00.002+08:00

this morning, amalina really make me burst into laughter with all her funny post at fb, and mostly its about the cameron melts tingy. and she still remembered the moth mistake i did. yes yes..i agree. no joke no fun. :) soleha was online too ystd and so, she joined us. she seemed so blur awhile. hahas. and amalina was making fun of her "a-kay!". haha!

face mask! yes. using egg. that is what dewi taught me. my face is so 'tegang'. and i cant laugh, talk or even smile. amalina is so mean. :( i tweet this and she reply, asking me to laugh. and i nearly laugh. thanks eh. i will blame you if i have wrinkle on my face. haha! XD

oh ya sunshines! im not sure whether i can make it for tomorrow's study date. theres no one taking care of granny. everyone will be out. lil brother is still not back yet from kampung. and so, i can no longer depend on him. somemore, granny is quite sick these few days. i cant promise you guys that im going tmr. like what amalina said, theres always another day. :)

amalina really makes me laugh even with just a simple tweet.

2010-06-16T20:00:00.003+08:00

today i woke up at 3pm. for the first time i woke up this late even when i

slept early. i think its due to the medicine that sis gave me before i went to bed. i woke up and see myself as a zombie. felt quite giddy. fever on and off. now, everything smells the same. i really hate this. this always happen when im down with fever. fortunately, i still can taste the food that i eat. if not, i will only eat lollipop. and that reminds me of something.

i believe that everything happens for reason and miracles happens everyday. whether or not its true he lost all his contacts, i dont care much. and i dont know why i will always fall sick when i msg him. im still wondering why.

2010-06-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

had a great day with sunshines today. :( soleha only join us for lunch. library was packed and so we head off to republic poly. theres lots of empty tables in rp's library. great1 well, studied chemistry. did few of tys qns. i cant deny that those two sunshines are jokers. they seriously make me burst into laughter most of the time. and the best part is that they always make fun of me. im not pissed off bcause afterall, its a joke.

sis got a letter from mr policemen. she did not do anything wrong. of course, shes pissed off right now with her friend. well, cant elaborate much on what exactly happen. but im gonna help sis to contact her friend. and that is through him. of all people.. yess.. him. what a small world.

hopefully, this case can be resolve asap.

2010-06-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

im bored. theres nothing much to share today. spent my day revising history, which i find it fun. apart from that i also played racing with lil brother. guess what? i won him 3 race. haha! he should never underestimate his great sister. to be truthful, im a bad racer. i won just because i chose the easy circuit that has not much turning turning. too bad lorh brother. i shall regard you a loser from now on. haha! im joking laa.

2010-06-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

i shall tell you a story. tumblr is so fun. & now im addicted to it. thanks to the nice quotes and pictures. :) so, tomorrow, im back to "school" okays. im having lessons at home to be exact. in conclusion, im starting my revision. it did not worked out last 2 days. just because i woke up late and was too lazy to study. that should not be the way. i know. anyways, i really hope that i can focus tmr. insyaAllah.

okays, i can tell that sis is very open. she tells mom&dad from a till z about that traffic police. yeah her ttm. police??? me no likey. looking at mom&dad, i think they are so into her stories. so interested. and mom was asking when she can meet him. gagaga. aunts & uncles too. babuji. babuji. and so she went out with him just now. to where? me dont really know. i only love the royce chocolate that she brought home. thats all. :D okays, sis kept telling me her stories day & night and i was like "dear sister, my ears need a break." i know im a no good sister but as you know..ahh. nvmindlah. anw, sorry yaws sister.

2010-06-12T19:42:00.004+08:00

dad really pampered lil brother so much. the lil brother that always makes me mad. gosh! just because he passed his exams and always ngaji, what he wants he will always get. now he gets himself a ps2. irritating. oh mee oh myy, this is so unfair. whatever lah, im independant.

2010-06-12T12:38:00.003+08:00

ohh.. thats him! thoha zikri bin tamzin.

future lawyer & businessman.

11th storey high swimming pool slide. this is indeed crazy!

he took my dimple on the right.

*manage to take some of his photos. hehe.

brother bought lots of stuffs from dubai. he gave me a bracelet. nice nice. :) after looking at his photos, i feel like going on a holiday also. yes yes, i envy him a while. and sister was saying, "eka, kter pergi yuk, next year, amcm?" and shes serious about it. wait for me to save up okay sister. unlesslah you want to sponsor me.

i really salute brother for being so thrifty. i am so the opposite. somebody, please help me to spend wisely.

2010-06-12T02:09:00.001+08:00

i will try my very best.

2010-06-12T01:13:00.004+08:00

and so today i did not study. -.-

obviously, i woke up pretty late. had pancakes for breakfast. 3 pancakes. yummy. :D

went to accompany aunt linda buy contact lens in the afternn. its been a while since i last met my cute granny. miss her so much. and then, followed aunt linda home as granny was there.

at her house, aunt & uncle was talking about sister's ttm. and then suddenly uncle ask me about him. i was like, 'seriously, theres nothing btwn me & him already laa.' they thought i was joking around. -.- gagagaga. we chatted quite long. one by one uncle & aunty tried digging my secrets. bluek! and so, i start my drama. hehe.

head to mcdonalds after that. sis brought her lappy along & so FACEBOOK! we sat side by side but still, comment on each others' status. yeah i know, lame. :D not forgetting, cam-whore!

okays, im on the way to sick. i lost count on how many times i sneeze today. oh! that reminds me of my dearest friend hosea! haha! :D and now, im stuffing a tissue in one of my nostril. i cant stand the mucus that keeps flowing. ohh gosh, quite irritating. ewwwwwww. i know. btw syafiqah, its not lovesick. :)

2010-06-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

knock on the door at 11 plus pm? quite scary. and somemore its friday night. i look through the hole and saw someone. quite scary lah. thought its a stranger. silly me. its my dearest brother!

yeay! finally, big brother is back from his holiday. i nearly cant recognise his face mann! how cute he is. with his snow cap, luggage, jacket and white shoes. oh mee oh myy i miss him soo muchos. its been a week, time flies so fast eh. Alhamdulillah, he came back safely. :D

just being stupid today

2010-06-10T16:53:00.003+08:00

shall i tell you a story that im just being stupid today. firstly, im half an hour early for chemistry class. seriously, i thought that school starts at 11 today. it turned out to be 11.30. damn it! that really explain why none of my friends werent in school at that time. jaron and elza was as silly as me. they also thought that school starts at 11. at least they accompany me for awhile. then came siti soleha. yeay! another friend. after that syafiqah and hadzira. followed by amalina. complete.

had chemistry practical just now. i dont like practical anymore! sauna in the lab. i was sweating like he**. the fan was off. worse, theres no wind at that time. grr.. no more practical please teacher. i rather have theory, which is far far more better.

chemistry was the first and the last lesson today for non-art students. being an art student, soleha pass me the class key to return it. *claps claps claps* i realised that i have not return the keys to the office only when i reached home! so forgetful! & so, i dragged myself to school just to return the keys. oh ya soleha, stop blaming yourself. im the one at fault lah, you silly girl. anw, thanks for accompany-ing me to return the keys. how sweet of you. thanks! :D sorry that i made you feel guilty about it. whatever it is, case has closed. :) yeay!

im gonna start on my revision from tomorrow onwards. im no more a sleepy-head with the effect from tmr onwards. im gonna wake up early in the morning and help mommy do the household chores and after that start on my revision. i will only be online during my break time, most probably 12nn onwards till 3. im gonna do my holiday timetable tonight. hopefully, theres no more distraction.

when boredom strikes. i dont like.

2010-06-10T02:10:00.006+08:00

im totally bored right now. sleep?? nahh! im not sleepy yet. revision? im not in the mood. glad that school starts late today. i will prepare my uniform and bag later in the morning. luckily theres one lesson only, which is chemistry. and i bet its practical. yeay! today would be the last day of school and after this, im able to enjoy my holiday. ermm.. cant really enjoy much. i need to start on my revision. revision is a must-must. no more procrastinating. & now, im craving for my favourite pancakes. well, im waiting for mommy to replenish the pancake mix. hopefully, i get to eat pancakes for breakfast later.

ShesAtikahT

half-dead.

holiday for me please!

granny, I love you.

fear of the future

because - jessica mauboy

my world is spinning too fast.

hello future, goodbye past

elliot yamin - you say

she's back. hohoho!

i feel like quitting. but no, im strong to face all this.

its already too late

make me happy please

2 days of work and five days off for me can?

memories

i swear, im tired. sunshines, i miss them.

thankyou bestfriend

i get weak

im sorry for not telling the truth.

this is it.

its her birthday.

lets not meet again even in my dream

believe that everything happens for a reason.

the fatigue

say hello to sunshines. say goodbye to bestfriend.

all alone tonight

i remember every single thing without you knowing it

a night to remember

excited!

of all the dates..

sunshines, i love them :)

boredom strikes 24/7 when Os left

sister, i love you.

you. you. you

the name that always resound in my head

know her well through quotes

sunshines

your stories & your songs

science practical do me good pls

happy birthday Libra sunshines!

we graduate. but we wont forget.

:(

"Just because she comes off strong,doesn’t mean she didn’t go to sleep crying.And even though she acts like nothing’s wrong,maybe she’s just really good at lying."

ShesAtikahT

just being stupid today

when boredom strikes. i dont like.

"Just because she comes off strong,
doesn’t mean she didn’t go to sleep crying.
And even though she acts like nothing’s wrong,
maybe she’s just really good at lying."